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box. This was a really good day. At home, the master carefully removed the shirt, dusted it,
and folded it neatly. Then he ironed the shirt and put it along with me in the wardrobe.

Wow. I never had such high expectations from my life. I was brimming with excitement due
to the experiences I had on my first day at the Master’s house. I couldn’t wait to go out to the
cool building again. I heard a click and the lights went off. I needed no further clues to
understand it was time for my sleep.

I woke up the next day. The wardrobe opened again. However, the master picked another
shirt. I thought, “It is quite natural for men like the master to do that. After all, if he keeps
wearing me as Benjamin did, I will get dirty and be thrown away”. I spent the entire day
thinking about the experiences of my previous day and hoping I would be picked the next
day.

Yet, I haven’t been picked up again yet. Master’s long fingers seem to miss me every time. I
have never been to the ‘cool building’ ever again. This makes me ponder, has my life been
cursed? I really think so. It’s because whenever I feel that Lady luck has favoured me, good
happens to me for a short while, and then I never feel happy again. Is it really a curse or am I
doing something wrong? Suddenly Benjamin’s mother’s words echoed in my head. “Life will
always be what you want it to be”. This makes me wonder. Do I want my life to never
emerge out of sadness? No, I don’t. Then what has made me sad all these times? The answer
came in a flash. It’s because I never cherished or cared for the merry moments in my life.
Instead I’ve always chosen to whine about things wrong with my life. If you look at my life
as the times of fun with Benjamin or as the times of peace and solitude with the subtle
beauties of nature or as the exquisite experiences I may have with the master, then I have had
a better life than I ever dreamt about. With my perspective changed, I shall lie in this
wardrobe thinking about my past life, until Lady luck makes master pick me up again and
add another great experience to my life.

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