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Roshni: Don’t you dare glorify that lowlife, in front of me, who never cared about his family
was yet always happy in his own life. It’s all been so easy for you, hasn’t it? Can you
ever imagine my rising from that slum of life alone with an infant son to care for and feed? I
distinctly remember the night I left your dad and walked out into the lonely night with you in
my arms and no place to go, just with the burning sensations in my heart to change our lives.
Finding work as a small tailor, living in the chawls wasn’t easy but it was always fuelled by
the desire to rise.

Siddharth: (Interrupting) In that very desire mom, you never realised when you had gone too
far. The ambition and the dreams that you possessed were all so good until you stopped
feeling anything anymore other than the kick that inflicting your power gave you. It’s all so
inspiring on how from a shady tailoring shop you gained experience and your knowledge that
you gained online on fashion,

You made this “The Roshni Nanda” out of you where you run countless boutiques all over
the world but I still feel pity for you mom, on how you are forced to live dual lives, never
being able to live as a free soul but wear this face of an awe-inspirational single mother
miraculously rising through the ranks. But I ask you, mom, for what cost?

Roshni: The cost that you ask, had to be paid for what I wanted to achieve in my life, and true
to my conviction I was ever so ready to pay it. Unlike weak, normal people with a head full
of dreams yet not the will, the conviction to do it? I never backed out of an opportunity that
life presented to me when I could achieve something in life. What would a man so void of
devotion and loyalty towards her own mother who gave him all he has in life know about all
this?
Siddharth: Every word that you said there mom, so true. You were so engrossed in your
ambitions that you didn’t even think once before you destroyed the careers of countless of
your employees, illegally using them as tools to make a profit, extraditing them for your
crimes and ultimately expanding your franchise, then silencing their families with money.
One can only wonder what happened to the ones that retaliated. Budding careers along with
the hopes associated with them by their families all destroyed just because you wanted a good
life for your son? Stop lying mom, you have been de-masked and soon the whole world will
know the reality of your success, the evil that lies within. The duality you lead in the face of
charities, and your other noble deeds.

When I first confronted you for the first time when I found about a money-laundering scheme
in the face of your “Girl child education” charity function you told me it was a one time
mistake that you somehow committed but you ensured me that you make it alright, and I
believed you because you were my idol. However, now that I have proof of multiple of your
heinous crimes I don’t think not involving the law will be an option this time. But mom I
guess there is still a chance for you to regain some of the respect that I earlier had for you in
my heart by surrendering to the law enforcement and coming clean to the people that worship
you. Can you do that for me mom, for your son, whom you depict to love the most?
Roshni: The last time you confronted me came as a shock to me on how I could be so
careless to have let out leads of my acts to reach out to the world. Ever since I’ve been
fighting a conflict within my head between motherhood and the societal image that I have
built. I kept thinking about how this whole situation could have been avoided with you never

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