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Tired of Hoping…

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Day begins, hope begins
Day ends, hope ends
I am beginning to lose myself
In the search of finding myself
What’s right, what’s not
Who is going to tell me that
I used to look up when I had questions
But I guess he is also fed up with my behavior
He has stopped answering
Or maybe I have stopped asking
Why? Because I am tired
Really tired
Tired of explaining things
Tired of understanding things
Tired of myself, tired of everything…
I am tired…

This pain seems never ending
I am fed up of it…
Nobody understands apart from me
What each day I go through
With this pain lingering around whole day
It has been terrible
Still I am trying,
I swear, I am trying to cope with
But right now, I sense failure
I feel restlessness

I feel tears, emotions just bursting around
I don’t know, it’s not in my control either...

I hope you still understand me,
I hope you still love me
I know, you will

But still I am hoping with all the hope I am left with
May be you will know one day
I can do nothing, just hope…

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